A blog of the experiences, thoughts and fantasies of a boy who grew into a emasculated transvestite, living a life of shame, emasculation and effeminacy in pantyhose, high-heels and girlie clothes.
Most of what you read here is drawn from my actual experiences - sometimes embellished, sometimes aggregated and modified.
Some of what you read just exploring thoughts and ideas about how and why males are drawn to dressing in womens clothes and wallowing in the shame that often goes with it.
Some of it is pure fantasy.
I use captioned public domain images to illustrate these my posts.
When they’re dressed up in the stockings and high heels and women’s underwear and girlie clothes, there is this tension between the deluge of girlie emotions, girlie thoughts and girlie sensations that overcomes them viscerally and them visions and expectations there have of themselves as “men” cognitively.
This tension produces an intense erotic arousal which they are impels them towards obsessive masturbation.
Masturbation temporarily allows them to satiated this arousal.
Once their sissy fluids are spent they will feel ashamed and disgusted with themselves.
They will discard their stockings and girlie clothes (sometimes even purging all their girlie stuff) and delude themselves that they can be normal, regular guys.
They can’t.
It’s usually no more than a few hours before their sissy urges to dress in stockings and girlie clothes and drown themselves in an ocean of effeminacy return.
Then they’re back to their filthy, obsessive masturbatory habits.
They ultimate solution to this is to lock away their pitiful make appendages in constant chastity, so their efforts to play with themselves are frustrated and they’re unable to purge those girlie transvestite urges.
They’re left feeling Impotent, weak, frustrated an totally malleable.
It is, however, in the build up to locking you’re sissy into a lifetime of impotence as a chastised eunuch, useful to force it consume its own semen - whether of a flat surface surcharge as illustrated here, from a condom it may have been wearing while masturbating or sucking it from its soiled panties or pantyhose.
Because the sissy is spent it will not derive any arousal from this. Only shame, disgust and self loathing.
It will be this stage no longer want to be dressed in girlie things, but is forced to do so as it consumes its own pitiful sissy fluids.
It’s an effective way of degrading your sissy and crushing its self-esteem.
The locking it in chastity and shackling and handcuffing it in helplessness in its girlie clothes for several hours where, unable to wallow in the erotic arousal it usually derives from being dressed in womens stockings and girlie stuff, but being so dressed, it’s mouth still tasting the residual taste of its own semen. it is left in solitude to contemplate what a pitiful specimen it really is.
This intense self-loathing, however, does not prevent the sissy from dressing up again.
Once its sissy juices are replenished its urges will return and it will come to fetishise its own degradation.
But, locked into impotent chastity, it will not be able to pleasure itself.
Ultimately, this makes for a totally weak, pitiful and malleable sissy, to bre used in any which way.
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Sissies are compulsive masturbators.
When they’re dressed up in the stockings and high heels and women’s underwear and girlie clothes, there is this tension between the deluge of girlie emotions, girlie thoughts and girlie sensations that overcomes them viscerally and them visions and expectations there have of themselves as “men” cognitively.
This tension produces an intense erotic arousal which they are impels them towards obsessive masturbation.
Masturbation temporarily allows them to satiated this arousal.
Once their sissy fluids are spent they will feel ashamed and disgusted with themselves.
They will discard their stockings and girlie clothes (sometimes even purging all their girlie stuff) and delude themselves that they can be normal, regular guys.
They can’t.
It’s usually no more than a few hours before their sissy urges to dress in stockings and girlie clothes and drown themselves in an ocean of effeminacy return.
Then they’re back to their filthy, obsessive masturbatory habits.
They ultimate solution to this is to lock away their pitiful make appendages in constant chastity, so their efforts to play with themselves are frustrated and they’re unable to purge those girlie transvestite urges.
They’re left feeling Impotent, weak, frustrated an totally malleable.
It is, however, in the build up to locking you’re sissy into a lifetime of impotence as a chastised eunuch, useful to force it consume its own semen - whether of a flat surface surcharge as illustrated here, from a condom it may have been wearing while masturbating or sucking it from its soiled panties or pantyhose.
Because the sissy is spent it will not derive any arousal from this. Only shame, disgust and self loathing.
It will be this stage no longer want to be dressed in girlie things, but is forced to do so as it consumes its own pitiful sissy fluids.
It’s an effective way of degrading your sissy and crushing its self-esteem.
The locking it in chastity and shackling and handcuffing it in helplessness in its girlie clothes for several hours where, unable to wallow in the erotic arousal it usually derives from being dressed in womens stockings and girlie stuff, but being so dressed, it’s mouth still tasting the residual taste of its own semen. it is left in solitude to contemplate what a pitiful specimen it really is.
This intense self-loathing, however, does not prevent the sissy from dressing up again.
Once its sissy juices are replenished its urges will return and it will come to fetishise its own degradation.
But, locked into impotent chastity, it will not be able to pleasure itself.
Ultimately, this makes for a totally weak, pitiful and malleable sissy, to bre used in any which way.